Total Fail...

So the love dare has totally been thrown out the window. While I know that the whole idea is that it be one sided, and that through that the spouse whom is on the recieving end will "see the light" one must actually follow through on all 40 days in order for this to work. Of course it also helps if ones spouse is willing to meet you half way...mine I have decided is not. Thus, I have once again discovered that the love dare is a total fail. Sigh.

See, Barney has a "standing" date to play raquet ball on Tuesdays. Not a problem generally as he is typcially home by 8:30. Last night 8:30 came and went with no sign of Barney. This didn't bother me so much as I was enjoying the peace as Rocky had gone to bed at 7:45 and while swaddled was happily snoozing. By 9:30 however when I hadn't received a phone call, I started to become concerned. 3 1/2 hours playing ball seemed a bit extreem, but still I waited. By 10 I yanked Rocky out of his crib and walked to the court which was completely dark. So I decided to follow a hunch and see if Barney was at Fred's house, and sure enough he was and this peaved me off. Not that he was there, but that he hadn't had the courtesy of saying "Hey, I'm at Fred's don't wait up" or better yet, coming home to our house and grabbing his phone and his KEYS before heading back to Fred's house. See, when Barney left at 6 he said "I'm not taking my keys don't lock the front door" Ok, not a problem as I don't believe that I'm going out between now and 8:30...however when you don't plan on coming home until almost 10:30 this means I can't go to bed, and that really peaves me off.

Of course when ones husband finally does come home after you threaten to lock the door so that you can go to sleep in a mood you aren't going to bed any time soon there after anyway. Sigh. I will say this, while I wasn't very nice myself I cut the argument short in a way I would have never done before. "Barney, I'm done. I've said my peace and am done. When you wish to discuss what I perceive to be your inconsiderate behavior I will be more than willing to do so, but for now, I'm done" and then I went to bed, alone. At 3 when Rocky woke up because he was unswaddled I brought him into bed with me, and we cuddled (he slept, I stewed) until the alarm went off at 6 a.m.

What is hardest about being a parent is that when you're mad at your spouse your obligations to your child don't end. While I want to be passive agressive and angry at Barney for his continued inconsiderate behavior I can't be for we have an audience who is sucking it all in...and as we know from our own experiences we learn how to be a spouse from our parents. So instead of being snarky and angry I changed, dressed, and heated Rocky's bottle before handing him to his daddy...smiling while I did it...texting however...lets just say its a good thing Rocky can't read. Sigh...